you will get through this medium
Be confident in yourself, my dear. I know that your pain is hard and doesn't make sense right now. It's placed a cloud over you that feels like it will never go away, like your heart is breaking in to millions of pieces and all you can do is ask why. Sometimes, the reason why isn't evident. But when you look on this moment and see the bigger picture, you'll know that this effort was not waisted - your happiness is always worth fighting for. You are infinity more than enough, so much stronger than you realize. don't give up hope; there's always a way through.